so....i think in facebook status's. seriously. i drive around and think "holly is such and such". and usually they're pretty good status's, but by the time i'm in front of a computer, they've all disappeared. or i have like 10 at once, and there's only room for one at a time...boooooo. anyways, they're pretty entertaining, but i wish i could share them with people so they could be entertained too! am i making sense yet? anyways.
i don't know what i want. do i want to move? do i want to build a house? do i want to pursue some sort of career? - that one would definitely involve a move i think. when do i want to have kids? i'll start with the first one.
do i want to move? yes and no. i don't want to move because i'm comfortable here. i know where everything is, i know a lot of the people, my family is here, my friends are here. i know (okay i'm not 100%, but i'm pretty sure) that i would not be able to find a job with bosses like mine anywhere else. reasons why i wouldn't mind living somewhere else are: i could get a job at something besides a restaurant, a big-box store, or as a bookkeeper/receptionist/secretary etc. there's way cooler jobs out there. the weather is becoming an issue: i'm not sure how many more winters i could make it through like last years. i don't even want to get through this years if it's going to be like that was. so i would want to move somewhere with milder temps. and maybe some different scenery. like mountains. i could live somewhere with an amazing outdoor gym: hills, long flights of stairs, hiking trails i don't have to drive to, more than one path to run on. when i think about this decision, things that are important to me or that i am passionate about come to mind:
- organic food, especially if it's local
- being active, prefferably outside
- clothes/fashion, having the opportunity to buy something unique, like at a boutique
- movies, especially independent ones, playing where i live
- yoga, being able to go to a class where i live
- music, not having to drive 1½ hours to get a cd i want
i want access to anything i could possible want, without having to live in a big city. this topic makes my brain hurt; it opens up a flood of reasons for both sides. so i don't know what i want.
