Wednesday, October 8

peek inside my head

so....i think in facebook status's. seriously. i drive around and think "holly is such and such". and usually they're pretty good status's, but by the time i'm in front of a computer, they've all disappeared. or i have like 10 at once, and there's only room for one at a time...boooooo. anyways, they're pretty entertaining, but i wish i could share them with people so they could be entertained too! am i making sense yet? anyways.

i don't know what i want. do i want to move? do i want to build a house? do i want to pursue some sort of career? - that one would definitely involve a move i think. when do i want to have kids? i'll start with the first one.

do i want to move? yes and no. i don't want to move because i'm comfortable here. i know where everything is, i know a lot of the people, my family is here, my friends are here. i know (okay i'm not 100%, but i'm pretty sure) that i would not be able to find a job with bosses like mine anywhere else. reasons why i wouldn't mind living somewhere else are: i could get a job at something besides a restaurant, a big-box store, or as a bookkeeper/receptionist/secretary etc. there's way cooler jobs out there. the weather is becoming an issue: i'm not sure how many more winters i could make it through like last years. i don't even want to get through this years if it's going to be like that was. so i would want to move somewhere with milder temps. and maybe some different scenery. like mountains. i could live somewhere with an amazing outdoor gym: hills, long flights of stairs, hiking trails i don't have to drive to, more than one path to run on. when i think about this decision, things that are important to me or that i am passionate about come to mind:
- organic food, especially if it's local
- being active, prefferably outside
- clothes/fashion, having the opportunity to buy something unique, like at a boutique
- movies, especially independent ones, playing where i live
- yoga, being able to go to a class where i live
- music, not having to drive 1½ hours to get a cd i want

i want access to anything i could possible want, without having to live in a big city. this topic makes my brain hurt; it opens up a flood of reasons for both sides. so i don't know what i want.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

mm, i like this place you are describing! and..um...i also think in facebook status', although it's probably best those never ever make it to facebook :)

Heather said...

it sounds like you need to move to vancouver.. we lived near commercial drive for a few years.. loved it! you would love it. everything and more than your list! go for it! (although i would miss you.. it sucks to feel stuck and why not take a big step.)

Holly said...

hmmmmm. i don't feel stuck and like i want to get out, i just wonder what something different would be like.

Holly said...

oh AND my profile pic is from vancouver :)

Heidi-and-Seek said...

COME LIVE WITH MEEEEEEEEE!!! WE have an empty basement that you could live in!!!

Anonymous said...

LETHBRIDGE.

But it gets old here, too. Now we have higher demands. Namely: there just isn't enough ocean around here, and far too many cows.

Holly said...

not to mention WIND.

Holly said...

not to mention WIND.