in loving memory of brittany fehr

britt, i don't even know what to say. the only reason i'm not crying right now is because i can't believe it. i'm glad that we got to know each other when we did, otherwise i wouldn't have known what an awesome person you were. you inspired me and encouraged me and i remember that every time you said you loved me it meant the world to me. i can't believe you're gone. i'm gonna miss you so much. thanks so much for visiting me in January. i know you're looking down on us, and i know you're doing just awesome, but it really hurts down here because we have to miss you and not see you here again. your funeral is gonna be frickin huge because that is how many people you have touched. i love you so much and i'll see you later.

today, formerly known as tomorrow

do you ever get the feeling that you're just not all that likeable? or not as fun as other people? i just hate trying and i think i'm becoming more of an introvert. i'm having a great time here in Sechelt BC. it's gorgeous and Peter has been an awesome host. So far we have kayaked and taken along a picnic, hiked up a mountain for an hour, ate yet another picnic, went shopping, sat by the ocean, had a bonfire on the beach, made a raft and took a picture with a sign that said "eat it kev" for my friend Kevin who desparately wanted to make a raft the other day. and so far Peter has made us Waffles, crepes, introduced me to Nutella, and almost made us Marguaritas at 11 in the morning. and we've watched "Eulogy" and "the Motorcycle Diaries" both of which were great in different ways. and i'm not sure if we're leaving tonight or tomorrow. we should probably decide that. ok bye now.

i am an unsafe rollerblader

Today i whiped out rollerblading. twice. It was hilariously embarrassing. i'll elaborate in person cuz it's funnier. Lets just say speed and hills were involved. And i also played croquet today, which was a flashback to my grandparents backyard. oh by the way these activites were made possible by the clear sky, sunshine, and plus 11 weather. yes i was wearing shorts, and no i wasn't cold. BOOYA!
Tomorrow at 6 in the morning me and Marie are skytraining and bussing our way to the Horseshoe Bay ferries in order to visit our friend Peter in sechelt. should be a good time. apparently he has kayaks. that's the reason i'm going anyways.
tonight we watched Friday Night Lights. if you're looking for a movie to make you really angry and not a fan of states football, it's a keeper.
i don't think i'm really in the mood to do this today.

blogstarrunner.com

heyhey. Yesterday was Valentines Day. I got Valentines from my unitmates (said with Australian accent) and Peter. who is not my unitmate because he is a boy. and it was made out of newspaper. very creative Peter.
My lovely choir director decided to go ahead and not cancel our 2 and a half hour choir rehearsal on V-day, which meant the festivities commenced at approximately 9:30 pm. and because dear Philip has a meager 86 cents to his name, i excercised my creativity skills and made the best valentine game ever. I'd elaborate but...no. Needless to say fun was had by all. Today me and Marie went Rollarblading. it was really great. and we decided to make a home video of the B.C.-get it, the O.C. except a SPOOF!!! funfun. we already cast people in rolls and everything. I have one more midterm to go and then it's READING WEEK!!!! me and Marie are probly going to Peter's house in Sechelt (pronounced Seashelt) for a couple days cuz it's on an island. and then we are going snowboarding, and then we are doing nothing for a few days. i am excited.

i would now like to echo my brutha Joel and say: COMMENT MY MINIONS!!!
Queen Holly has spoken.

cowboy take me away

So today the boys of my college decided it was unofficial cowboy day, and wore cowboy hats, boots, and plaid shirts and neckerchiefs all day. Oh and those without bonifide mustaches drew them on with sharpies. I thought of you Marce, you would've loved it.

explorations of a chaotic mind

boo Heidi why did you have to go home. i've been thinking lately about family and how much i love mine and how thankful to God i am that i got the family i did. my mom is the best, my dad is the best, my sister is the best, and my brother is...or will be...the best. no offense luke, if you read this, i know we'll get along better someday. and i've also begun to realize that i like myself a whole lot better than i thought i did. i was doing this assignment and one of the questions was "why do people hate to be alone?" and i think it's because they don't like themselves. who likes being with people they don't like? especially alone with those people. but i like to be by myself sometimes. i don't have to explain anything to me, and i always get my jokes. and there's no stress to please me, because, well, i like me even when i'm boring. and i've realized that even when i am alone, i never feel alone alone because God is always with me, and i know that sounds cliche (hate that word), but no really, i just realized that i can feel Him with me. it's kind of exciting for me because it makes it more real. i don't know quite how to explain it. i think i'm discovering me a lot, and i like it. and i like that i'm discovering God at the same time. i think quite possibly that i might be happy.