Monday, December 3
There is a little bit of nudity (boobs), definitely not a family movie, but if you're interested in learning a bit about who Tolstoy was, I'd recommend it!
I don't feel like giving backstory, since those of you who read this know me, so I'm just going to jump into life today.
Appropriately, she's just waking up from her nap so I will continue this later :P
Wednesday, October 12
*Nope, i'm still not writing my own words. Instead, regurgitating things other people say that make me think. The original post is "Mothering without fear", but i am not a mother, and this post totally relates to life in general*
When Jesus shows up on the morning after our biggest failure, He doesn’t judge, scold or say: “I told you so.” Instead, he cooks some food for us. And then he says, “Come eat breakfast.”
It’s been a terrible week. Peter has denied Jesus three times. Judas has hung himself. Jesus is dead. And now, the one thing they know how to do–fishing–isn’t even working. They’ve fished all night and caught nothing (St. John 21).
But it’s morning now, a new day. And from the shore, some crazy dude is calling at them to let down their nets on the right side of the boat. It’s a deja-vu moment. Just a couple years ago, they’d spent a similar night fishing without success. And when Jesus told them to let down their nets, Peter was like: “Yeah, we did that already.” But they did it anyway and their nets started breaking, their boat sinking with how many fish they pulled in.
Could this be happening again? So, they let down their nets and yes, the haul is huge. John, the little disciple–the only one who didn’t abandon Jesus when He was dying–is the first to recognize Jesus.
He nudges Peter, “It’s the Lord.”
Peter is just so in it he doesn’t even realize what’s going on. He’s so enmeshed in the nets, grappling with the details of what needs to be done that he needs John to point out the bigger picture: “It’s the Lord.”
Peter’s like: “WHAT?!” He looks up and squints toward shore. That’s when it all hits him. It’s Jesus. It’s Jesus. Jesus is ALIVE? That means it’s ALL true! Everything is NOT lost!
And I love Peter, here. He’s stripped naked for work. He’s way out on this boat. But that doesn’t stop him. Peter just totally bails off the side of the boat and thrashes for shore. “It’s the Lord! It’s the Lord!”
You’d think Peter would stay on the boat, all ashamed. You’d think he’d be the last one off the boat to greet Jesus. You’d think that after his big, public humiliation, Peter would just keep to himself and tone it down a bit. But he doesn’t. Peter is so human. Peter knew he had failed and messed up. Maybe he was so downhearted that the other disciples didn’t want to let him go fishing alone.
And so, Jesus came to them. Jesus didn’t wait for them to get their act together. He just showed up without judgment, without anger, without saying: “I knew you’d go back to fishing!” Jesus met them right where they were, right in the middle of their failure, their discouragement, their lame attempts at going back to fishing.
And after breakfast, all Jesus wants to know is if Peter loves him. Jesus asks three times–the same number of times Peter denied him. The three-fold affirmation of love expels the lingering doubt of betrayal and Jesus commissions Peter to do His work.
This is the only way I can mother without fear. I am going to fail and probably miserably. There will be times when it seems all is lost. God’s silence will sometimes make me think He’s dead.
Jesus understands. He doesn’t expect me to be anything other than what I am: human. Jesus won’t show up and scold me. He’ll call out to me in the middle of my futile fishing. He’ll watch me thrash toward shore, smiling at my wild abandonment. He’ll feed me breakfast.
And then He’ll ask me if I love Him.
If I have love, then I have everything. And if I have His love, then I have nothing to fear.
Tuesday, August 30
Wednesday, May 11
Wednesday, May 4
“Oh!! Are we baking Aunty?”
“Aunty Susie isn’t it the girls are baking today?”
“What are we baking? It’s the boys turn right??”
“But the girls baked last time, how aunty….”
“Angege aunty, It’s not fair!”
“Mmmmm I’m hghallaring, what are you baking Aunty?”
“Can I carry your bag?”
After I deliver the news of whose turn it really is, we hear the groans of
“What are we baking Aunty Susie?”
“Can I mix the eggs?”
“But my chair was here first!”
“Can we have sugar???”
“She licked the spoon Aunty!!”
“Aunty I haven’t had a turn yet…”
“Can I clean (and by that, they mean lick of course) that spoon?”
“Can I have my turn, I’m mixing that right?”
“Do we get to eat them now, don’t say tomorrow after school!”
“Where is the chocolate pieces aunty, can we have some?”
“This is going to be good…”
“Aunty I’m going to sit here and watch them till they are finished baking!”
“Haibo Aunty- the boys are coming in! Not fair!” “Ngiphusa amansi!” so I
“Mmmmm kumnandi kakhulu Aunty…”
“It’s toooo nice!”
And so it goes. After an hour I’m exhausted from having 10 rambunctious
The other day a thought occurred to me. When I bake, I let the kids help
Now if we who are earthly desire to do good things with our children, how
God has the power to give life. He created from nothing. He’s the king of
So I’ve realized God doesn’t need me to serve Him. He’d be better off
Here I am Lord. Take my little hands.
Tuesday, March 1
do NOT watch "the six wives of henry lefay". i spent the last half hour or so just waaaiting for it to be over. now, i wasn't expecting it to be anything special, but i did expect to be entertained, which i was not.
Friday, February 18
10 years ago... It was 2001
(the pic is a little later than 2001 but it's the earliest one i could find)
1.) How old were you? 16
2.) Where did you go to school? GVC
3.) Where did you work? good ol' McDicks
4.) Where did you live? with my parents
5.) Where did you hang out? at various friends homes or my own
6.) Did you wear glasses? of course
7.) Who was your best friend? Phil thought that's why we hung out lots ;) but probably Lori
8.) Who was your crush? Phil (unbeknownst to him)
9.) How many tattoos/piercings did you have? 4 (2 in each ear)
10.) What car did you drive? my parents car, a Taurus (unless i got a ride to work, i can't remember)
11.) Had you been to a real party yet? i guess not, but we called our huge group hang-outs 'parties' didn't we?
12.) Had your heart broken? nope
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? single but crafting plans
5 years ago... It was 2006
1.) How old were you? 21
2.) Where did you go to school? no school
3.) Where did you work? Rona (eek!)
4.) Where did you live? 8th Street in our first house
5.) Where did you hang out? at our house mostly i think
6.) Who did you hang out with most? Phil and friends
7.) Who was your best friend? Phil
8.) Who was your regular-person crush? all done with crushes :)
9.) How many tattoos did you have? zippo
10.) How many piercings did you have? 6 (3 in one ear, 2 in the other, and 1 in my nose)
11.) What car did you drive? 1989 Honda Civic
12.) Had you had your heart broken? Not really
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? Married for 15 days ♥
1.) How old are you? 26
2.) Where do you work? Wolfe Pac Consulting
3.) Where do you live? Galaxie Bay in the house we built
4.) Do you wear glasses? yes i do
5. Who do you hang out with most? parents, siblings, Lori, Autumn & Eric
6.) Do you talk to your old friends? some of them :)
7.) How many piercings do you have? 6
8.) How many tattoos? none still
9.) What kind of car do you drive? 2006 Volkswagon Jetta
10.) Has your heart been broken? Not in a romantical way
11.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? Married for 5 years!
Friday, February 11
phil & i watched this together, and we thought it was great! the premise sounds like it'd be a bit disturbing, but it's not, it's really touching. it's definitely a story you've never heard of before, and the characters are really likeable. it has that small-town-America feel that always makes me want to go on a road trip through the states. so far i'm 3/3 on my movie choices :D