hellooooooooooo

i went to the symphony!! it was really great. they were doing classic rock with the orchestra, which is pretty much my favorite thing in the world (minus the eccentric singer). BUT it was otherwise pretty rad. this weekend was pretty okay, i always forget how nervous i get when i'm in front of people, and i just wanted to go to the bathroom the whole time. i don't think a career in worship leading is for me. but i'm pretty pumped that phil got baptized, that was really special. except i only found out yesterday night (mon) who actually won the grey cup. GOOD GAME though, it was spectacular. so this week i have to choose a font for our wedding invitations, ummmm decide more on decorating stuff, and maybe food too. OH but on the plus side, i paid for our trip, and we got free tanning! PLUS when i got to work, cindy said that the tanfx people had just come by and given us free coupons for a MONTHS worth of free tanning!! i had been thinking about that and wondering how i would be able to afford to do that instead of burning my face off, and God jsut pulled this out of the hat! i love how he takes care of me, even if it is silly things like tanning.

not really very cool

ok so my grandpa is in the hospital now, and no one really knows anything, and all i've heard is that this other guy someone once knew had this and within an hour he died, so if you could pray for him and my family that'd be great. i'd like it if he could make it til mike's and my weddings. thanks guys.

this is my friend kevins bike. it is sweet. 

i have issues

yes, its true. sometimes i am just so sick of being here and thinking the same thoughts and doing the same things, and i am SO thankful that it does not end here. in fact it never ends, but that's beside the point. i am TIREd of being dissatisfied with myself, of trying to please people, of putting up with crap, (and of having no money, but that is also beside the point). i may not deal with it anymore. i am really not that nice of a person inside, but nobody knows except me cuz i know what i think. but i really do think that it might be time to stop thinking, and start doing/saying. as for myself, hmmmmm. honestly, you'd think not really liking yourself would be motivation enough to change, but we are just wierd beings ya know? where can you find the right motivation? like open the right box and off you'll go. i wish. you know what it is though, and i've just thought of this this moment, is i need more Jesus. AND i need to see/talk to my friends. i miss you guys.

anecdote

ok i just watched the funniest thing. this little boy had a drink from the mall water cooler, and as he was walking, he poured the rest out of the cup onto the floor, and then dropped the cup onto the floor, all the while walking. so funny!

no excitement here

i really have nothing to say, and although my trip to winnipeg yesterday was enjoyable, i don't think it would enthrall anyone a lot, so...oh except that we drove by all of y'alls places and i always feel bad for not stopping, but i was with my mom, and i didn't think having to go to the bathroom would keep her occupied for too long. not that we couldn't all have hung out, but whatever. you probably weren't home anyways. COME HOME AND SEE ME. I AM GOING CRAZY ALL BY MYSELF. and i might get married in a box because it'd be too dark to see the decorations so there wouldn't be any, and only me, phil, and rob would fit. problems solved!