part of the message on Sunday was "if you knew you had 3 months to live, would you do things differently?" well of course, but i hate that question. what are you supposed to do about it - quit your job? so...what happens when the money runs out? it doesn't really matter if i don't want to spend the majority of my day sitting at a desk at a job, because i can't not. sometimes life seems great, but then Monday comes and i remember that 40 waking hours out of 75 Monday-Friday are spent in a crappy office with loud airconditioning that makes it impossible to dress for the outdoors, the possibility that i will be royally cheesed off by someone at least once per day, and the attitude that your job = your life. i don't have that attitude, and i hate the fact that i spend most of my time here. it's like this every Monday and i hate going to bed because i know what comes next. i'm just really depressed about this right now.