it's only been 3 weeks...

my relationship with God is currently undergoing some MAJOR renovations. so major, that it's hard to tell if there really was anything there to begin with. all my misconceptions and selfishness have FINALLY brought our relationship to the point where it's me or Him, and i've chosen Him all the way. Right now there's a lot of growing pains goin on, as i've done life pretty much on my own terms until now, but He's teaching me to trust Him, to let go of my control, and He will show me His ways, which are SO NOT MINE. This is pretty much the hardest thing i have ever done, but learning to let what i know to be truth overpower everything else.